inspired by "Julie & Julia"

Yesterday I went to go see “Julie & Julia” with my mom. It was a great movie. It was funny, romantic, and inspirational. It focused a lot about cooking and writing, two things I am passionate about. They both bring me joy and heart ache. I am really grateful for my blog. When I write in it I feel as though it is more for me than anyone else. Just as Julie Powell aspired to be a writer, she turned to her blog. My dream is to be a writer, to share my life, and to hopefully show people who Jesus really is.

I start fresh today. So often I do not write because I think I have nothing to say. And to be honest I really do not enjoy it, that is the heart ache. I write because it is hands down the easiest and best way I express myself. God has told me to write a book. And it is the most common prophetic word I receive. It brings me joy to share, and to know I am stepping into my destiny. Every person has a story to tell. For the most part I love talking about myself, and it is easy for me. Writing this book is an adventure because I am living it out.

Cooking is a huge joy to me. I absolutely love it. The heart ache comes because for now I can’t do it myself and I am not able to eat. But I believe I will be able to. When I walk I will make the most amazing meal for my family, I can not wait. My other dream is to have a resort with some of the best food in the world.

Pray that I persevere. That I love, laugh, dream, risk all, write, and cook.

be still

"Be still, and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10)


I love this verse. It is so simple and profound. Yet so often I am not still. Time is the most valuable thing to God, and certainly to a lot of people too, including myself. So many Christians like myself do Bible study, go to church, stays out of sin, mission trips, and the list can go on forever. While those things are important and needed, God aches and longs for us to come into His throne room to be with Him.

At some point everyone likes to be with someone, they need and want a connection. The most profound experiences I have with people is not watching tv, movies, sports, video games, and so on, but they are when we make a heart to heart connection. To really know a person takes a lot of effort and time. Staying up all night talking, sharing a meal, worship and prayer, and simply just being together. It is a time for healing, because when your with someone I believe the person your with releases life to you. I have experienced this first hand. When laying in the hospital and I feel like crap, it literally makes me feel better when someone sits with me. If I am struggling with something, being with someone makes me better. I know everyone has experienced this, but for some reason it is not always easy. I have found it is easier to stay busy, to have activities and go out and about. Those things are ok to do, and I love to do all those things, but if it happens a lot, it is easy to fall into a place where it gets harder to share and just be. Sometimes not doing those things can be very awkward. It is difficult to share your dreams, desires, thoughts, and feelings. And finally with so much to do people get bored with nothing to do.

Being in Gods throne room means to be with him. God is madly in love with us and all He wants is us. Early in my walk with God it did not occur to me being with God is important. Reading the Bible can teach you about God, which is important, because He says He is the word. But for so long it was just words. Yes I believed it, but it was mostly confusing and uninteresting. But being with God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit and feeling their presence you get to know them as different persons. They become alive and they make the Bible come alive, it is more than just stories. Being with Him is the most exhilarating, intoxicating, peaceful, and lovely thing I've ever felt. God wants to know everything about us. Yes he knows about us, he is God. But to share with Him is a whole other thing, it is being intimate and trusting in Him. And yes it is is difficult because of every reason I already listed. But I challenge myself and my friends to slow down and be with God. I literally have to stop everything I am doing. Bill and Beni Johnson have taught me so much in this area. Sometimes I just sit, or go on a walk, or worship. I will not pray or ask for anything. I just allow His presence to rest on me, to feel His extravagant love! It is important to get used to His presence, to know what it feels like.

As important as knowing your spouse, friends and family is, it is way more important to encounter God! People live without His presence everyday and are very happy and fulfilled. But I would suggest life to the fullest is with God, knowing and being in His presence. And if someone just lives their own experience then they won't know anything else is available. Jesus came to give life to the full!! Lord grant us the grace to slow down, to get to know you. Help us recognize your presence. Lord help us fall in love with you even more!

"No Boundaries" :D

I have not written in so long. I haven't had the energy or will to even start writing about anything. But here I am again, God is so good to me. I'd like to spend some time talking about potential destiny. I believe in destiny, but I also believe you must pursue it. Destiny to the fullest does not come to you. Its not to say part of it will not, but if everyones potential destiny was realized immediately than no one would live in sin, die from disease, or live under torment. I believe with all of my heart that destiny to the fullest is possible. The kind of destiny where wheelchairs aren't needed, where fathers and mothers are in love, and where the unborn are protected.

I think Holy Spirit brought this to my attention while watching American Idol believe it or not. I love that show. This year starting a few weeks back I felt I needed to begin praying for Adam Lambert and Kris Allen. I had many dreams and I think a few insights about what to pray. Then I started remembering back in season six I prayed a lot for Jordin Sparks. I remember seeing part of her destiny. When she sings people will be physically healed, miracles will break out just by the sound she releases. Kris will change people internally, without them really noticing it. He will draw people to our King with or without singing about Him. And Adam will release joy breaking people free of their issues by his sound. I believe this with all my heart. To a certain extent they are doing this. And to a certain extent I am the man I was born to be.

To reach destiny I believe you must pursue the impossible. Pursue real relationships with friends and people who have authority over you. And most importantly pursue Gods presence. His real, raw, tangible presence. Worship our King!

I think I wrote this for myself more than anyone, it feels good to write again. Pray my friends... oh and COME ON KRIS!!!

vote 2008

Now therefore, be wise, O kings;
Be instructed, you judges of the earth.
Serve the LORD with fear,
And rejoice with trembling

Psalm 2:10-11


This is a very exciting season for me. I love politics and this is a very exciting election. I would love to share my heart about this. To me this election is about family. Family is the heart of life, the very core of our nation. The two biggest issues are life and the sanctity of marriage being between man and woman. It is my opinion that these issues are vital to family.

Roe V. Wade is a decree made by judges in America that legalizes the slaughtering of the unborn. All government is derived from government in heaven. Gods Kingdom does not allow the innocent to be killed. Our nation has taken a position. And as sons and daughters of the King we must arise and bring the Kingdom. We must govern and rule out of righteousness.

Barack Obama and John McCain are both great men. The truth is either man can run this country. The truth is the real hope and change America needs is found in Jesus. They are only one man. Lets arise and show the world who Jesus is. The Jesus that cares for the black boy in inner city Chicago, for the single mom without healthcare, for the family who lost their home or job, for the young men and women in Iraq, and for the unborn child whose destiny was stolen by being killed in the womb of their mother. The answer is not just up to our government, or up to one democrat or republican. As saints we are on earth to bring heaven to earth.

Only John McCain will give us judges that will vote for the rights of the unborn. This is why I am voting for John McCain. Women always have a choice to put their babies up for adoption. The unborn must have a voice and a right to life. Elections can be won by prayers! Lord let your will be done.

God I pray for righteous leaders and judges. Raise up your sons and daughters to bring justice. Life is the issue. Bring peace to our economy! I love you Jesus!

that the King may come inside

Last night I was worshiping with the Florida Outpouring and it was amazing. The King of Kings came into my room. Catherine Mullins and Andrew Phillips lead worship. They do real songs but then it turns to spontaneous. They started singing “open heaven, open gate, open wide...that the King may come inside!!!” When they started singing those words I felt the Spirit of the Living God come upon me and I got rocked. God is so good. I started imagining Jesus come to Ann Arbor. I saw Him coming into Laura’s body and setting her free of SMA (the disease we both were born with.) It was earth shattering.

The most significant thing I received in Lakeland last month was peace. The peace that goes beyond understanding. The peace that takes me to my Daddy’s embrace. I had peace before, but now I have peace unparalleled to any other time in my life.

Jesus come inside!! Come posses me!!! “Here is my heart, you can have it all.” -Kim Walker

beauty and the beast

You know those really fat markers that smell? Well those were my favorite toys ever. I would play for one for hours and hours and I wouldn’t even use it to draw. The marker would transform into whatever I want. Sometimes it was me. Other times it was a dog, Aladdin, Simba, Batman, a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, and anything else I wanted to be. In my imagination I was always a hero. Usually I was saving a girl. I loved flying magic carpets, being a king, dodging bullets, wielding two swords, driving batmobiles, and rescuing my princess. I lived fairytales in my head relentlessly with just a marker acting them out. No bad guy would dare mess with me. I was the best and would always win.

I know that in every persons heart they have a need and desire for adventure. It is biblical. Christianity is an adventure in it self. I really thank God for those times. I believe we are all heroes. I believe God gave me all of those dreams, I just might not actually be a ninja turtle. But I am actually a prince. I have a core value where I want to live everyday with a sense of innocence and adventure, just like a boy. The Living God is inside of me and He gave me that right. My bad guys are sin, sickness, and torment. I wield the weapons of righteousness, peace, joy, power, hope, faith, and love. Because Jesus is alive I still win every battle I fight.

There was a dream in my spirit for a long time that my soul didn’t really know was there. David had to command his soul to rejoice because it wasn’t as quick as his spirit. I know that to be true in many ways. At the end of Walt Disney’s Beauty and the Beast there is an amazing scene where Beast is pulled up into the air and was transformed into the prince. At last love conquered the curse and his dream became reality. Well as a young boy my spirit captured that image and God set it in me. My soul never realized it was there. I never talked of it. I believe the reason why God gave it to me is because God wanted to show my spirit who I am, how He actually views me, and what he wants to do with me. I am that prince and love has conquered this disease by my King and it will be reality on earth. The scene was implanted in my spirit and has never let me go.

Father I ask for grace and favor to live with innocence and adventure everyday.

do things

"The difference between people who do things and people who don't do things is that people who do things, do things." - Banning Liebscher

I love this quote and I think about it a lot. It makes my soul ache. It makes me hungry. I believe there is a grace on my life to dream with God easily and believe it will happen. I dream of writing books, walking, my wedding, my wife, my kids, my ministry, my mansions, jets, living in Gods glory, having revival at The Big House, emptying the University of Michigan Hospitals, having authority over every kind of Spinal Muscular Atrophy, no wheelchair zones, families totally alive to God, seeing abortion end because our courts rule for life, true mothers and fathers, no divorce, purity, no more poverty, and for every person in the world to be in love with Jesus, to know that He is alive and that God is good. The space between dreaming with God and living that out with God as reality is the doing things.

Being in a wheelchair and not being in school and not having a job allows me to have a lot of free time to say the least. Since I turned eighteen I went to college one year and had a job another. Three of those years I was an active leader in Young Life ministry. This most recent year I tried moving to Redding, CA to go to Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry and ended up in the hospital and decided to come home. I spent the following month trying to figure out what happened, and then ended up in the operating room because I had a testicular torsion. By the time I got over that 2007 was over. On some days I felt like I have done nothing and have had no breakthrough with in the four years of radically following God. But let me tell you that is a lie. God is so good and so big He turns everything into good. God is full of grace and I must lean into Him, I must live for His voice. He is what fills me with love and grace. In all my failures and success He is what keeps me going. I have received both breakthrough and blessing. I could write a book just about how blessed I am. But there is more.

The term "do things" captures me. I must step into more grace and more favor. Risk more. Play harder. Rest efficiently. Love deeply. Pray unceasingly. Burst forth. Steward faithfully. Live powerfully. Give generously. Impossible dreaming. Walk innocently. Stand tall. Righteous living. Bring freedom. Knock harder. No guilt. Become knowledgeable. Cry mercy. Pursue abundantly. Rise again. Joyful always. Listen closer. Fight boldly. Sing praise. Capture thoughts. Review promises. Obey immediately. Worship recklessly. Offer sacrificially. Release presence. Honor others. Appreciate beauty. Clean messes. Defeat discouragement. Serve unselfishly. Command life. Hide nothing. Offense free. Declare victory. Believe passionately. Read bible. Encourage daily. Seek truth. Deeper friendships. Dance wildly. Be still. Give thanks. Peace domination. Relentlessly persist. Decree wisely. Bless all. Desire Him. Conquer fear. Shout loudly. Have compassion. Encounter Him. Be changed.

I won't settle for anything less than to live in my inheritance that Jesus bought for me. As His son, prince, and lover it is my privilege and responsibility to be free of all sin, disease, and torment. Through grace impacting and disciplining families, cities, and nations. To bring freedom to broken hearts, healing the sick, raising the dead, and casting out devils.